November 24, 2006

  • one woman sitting on a bus
    much like death

    watching nameless streets and faces pass by
    much like death

    no one looks in a bus
    to see whats inside
    just whats offered on the glass

    much like death
    more like hell

    visits dont come to the woman
    she only sits and waits
    for her turn to come out

    her veritable hell
    her death
    her ride

    will anyone notice her
    will anyone notice her death
    will anyone notice her ride

    she steps off just like everyone else.
    walks to the places she was destined to
    no radicality in her footsteps

    pacing her steps in even motion
    not to be noticed
    she ventures to places known only to her.

    where sweeping dreams are all but reality
    and everyone is her friend.
    everyone notices what goes on.

    she wakes to do the same routine
    one woman sitting on a bus
    much like death

    always in different clothes
    never quite the same

    she goes to unremarkable places
    and visits indeterminate faces
    no one recognizes her.

    much like death
    much like a bus ride

    she stands and exits the bus
    so many times before
    the air is different this day

    the one woman walks just like everyone else
    to the place she was destined to
    with the same lackluster steps

    only to be stopped by something remarkable
    something utterly eye opening
    it glitters in the night sky

    she looks at her bland clothes
    and notes the crimson spilling out
    spattering her nondescript shoes

    much like death
    much like a bus ride
    she fades away

    not to be noticed
    not to be forgotten

August 24, 2006

  • all i can say is at moments i despise
    your existence.
    forces me to remind myself
    that i love
    where im at.

    my sunny 70 degree weather is
    being replaced
    my tornado is growing.
    the skies have turned that familiar
    shade of green.
    with every lightning strike bringin more energy
    every rolling thunderclap reverberating red streaks
    like broken blood vessels in my drunken eye

    my sober eye sees many more peaceful
    opportunities
    that if given time to grow
    could be like lazy spring mornings
    where everything is beautiful
    this is without hinderment from the storm.

    its too bad my eyes are no more than
    two inches from each other.

August 3, 2006

  • ive been gone for a while.


    but im still alive. new stuff.



    the stone heart knows no pain
    and knows no feeling.


    i am liked i am loved


    i have friends i have romances


    romancing the stone has never been this easy.
    all hopes leading to one road
    with a dead end sign.
    you life is pergatory
    my life is monotony


    i break faces
    i cry at movies
    i am dead yours


     


     


     


    i have a love and nobody knows it.
    i have a love and no way to expose it.
    i have love for you forbidden it seems
    i have a love for you in more than dreams



    longing wishing hoping.
    i want you to notice.
    wanting waiting doting
    i dont think you will.


    maybe thats half the battle.
    and more than half the fun.
    knowing that i have this love for you
    and that i cant have it.


    your oblivious.
    but its right in your face
    I fucking love you
    and you have no idea


    i dont want to die without you knowing.
    how much you mean to me.
    as a friend as more. as everything as nothing.


     


     


     


    what to do when the walls come closing in on you
    how to feel when the one you love
    tramples you


    like a fool
    we live to hurt again.
    expecting to much from something
    so small


    we live for glimmers
    when we have a bright shining light over us
    to foray into the dark
    leave the security
    after a gleam


    twinkles always look brighter
    they are surrounded by
    darkness
    cling wishing you had the light back
    when the dream extinguishes


    this lit city will close its walls
    and put out its lights on you.
    leave you in a world of dark.


    surely there will be more lights and even more spotlights
    none will be as bright as mine.
    when you have settled for something less
    remember how much you loved me.


    lights out


    curtain call


    end


     


     


    we are with a flash.
    we are what everyone wants to have.
    we are the dream.
    we are sweeping feet.
    we are heelkicks and kneepops


    wasted time for waiting no more
    opened up and laid before
    you
    are
    indescribable
    the emotions spilling forth.
    gripping like a tide.
    rushing and pulling me into you.
    drowning is a constant dream.
    fill my lungs with you


    we are with emotion
    we are what we are
    we are the happiness
    we are holding hands
    we are driving to home


    landing on the doorstep
    placed on a heart shaped platter
    are
    you
    hungry with the desire
    of knowing another person the way
    i wish to know you.
    it burns like the sun
    and the passion is so red.
    fill my veins with fire


     


     


     

May 31, 2006

  • i am about to be promoted to customer sales lead at express … i dont know what kind of raise that would be but i expect it to be great….


     


    im on the look for another job… cause yea mobil … really really pissed me off..


     


    im sorry if i offended or hurt anyone in the process


     


    my bad..


     


    they can eff off anyway..

April 24, 2006

  • ok so judi and i broke up like 2 weeks ago..

    ive been crapping like 7 times a day

    i dont think thats normal..

    oh well..

    lifes a poop..

    flush it down the drain.

    go express… and me never losing the credit card contests..

    i ruin lives like fat kids eat cake.

February 24, 2006

  • so … i havent updated in like ever… which is normal.. considering that i work more than most people… but eh whatev. i got a job at express in the mall as an associate.. and within a month i got promoted to fashion expert.. which is one step below management… soo yay yay me woot woot… i got a raise at both jobs… the roommates continually piss us off but then isnt that what roommates do ??? i thought so… im having mixed feelings about wanting to move back… i love judi with all my heart./… and thats about all that i have to say… werd bitches…

December 20, 2005

  • yo yo updating from the new apartizzle.


    im a pirate. cause nukes totally are nerds and have to have wireless like mofo.


    anywho… yea i like my roomates cause we are metal as… umm… metal. yea


    knuck if you knuckle puck.

December 13, 2005

  • leaving a life behind..but taking some of it with me…


    i will call all of my friends.. because friends are the fabric of life…


    and i like having a full quilt.


     

December 9, 2005

  • wow.. a month has gone by sooo fast.


    and now im about to depart to south carolina.


    its the scariest thing in the world..


    but at the same time.. its soo


    invigorating.


    i get to start over again.


    you get to many 2nd chances..


    and even less 3rd.


    time to make the best of this one..


    gonna use the government to help me out.


    montgomery GI bill here i come


    college…. …..     ……. should be interesting.


    i get to apply myself.


    and i think that ill not be retarded about it this time


    and do just that .


    apply myself like a stick of glue.


     

November 3, 2005

  • funny retarded rhymes that myself and fellow coworkers made up today at work….black style.


    just chillin like a villian with penicillin, not making a million
    but wishin i was kissin this place. that is laced with sadness goodbye.
    but its not gonna be to long now and soon ill be the bafoon you see in your living room holding my record high.
    most failed attempts at laughter it will say.
    though most will think that the way i play is gay i will stand strong and hold on to the things that are real and wait for the chance to let the whole deal spill
    across the headlines whilst i drop dimes and spit these not so ill rhymes