all i can say is at moments i despise
your existence.
forces me to remind myself
that i love
where im at.

my sunny 70 degree weather is
being replaced
my tornado is growing.
the skies have turned that familiar
shade of green.
with every lightning strike bringin more energy
every rolling thunderclap reverberating red streaks
like broken blood vessels in my drunken eye

my sober eye sees many more peaceful
opportunities
that if given time to grow
could be like lazy spring mornings
where everything is beautiful
this is without hinderment from the storm.

its too bad my eyes are no more than
two inches from each other.

ive been gone for a while.

but im still alive. new stuff.



the stone heart knows no pain
and knows no feeling.

i am liked i am loved

i have friends i have romances

romancing the stone has never been this easy.
all hopes leading to one road
with a dead end sign.
you life is pergatory
my life is monotony

i break faces
i cry at movies
i am dead yours

 

 

 

i have a love and nobody knows it.
i have a love and no way to expose it.
i have love for you forbidden it seems
i have a love for you in more than dreams

longing wishing hoping.
i want you to notice.
wanting waiting doting
i dont think you will.

maybe thats half the battle.
and more than half the fun.
knowing that i have this love for you
and that i cant have it.

your oblivious.
but its right in your face
I fucking love you
and you have no idea

i dont want to die without you knowing.
how much you mean to me.
as a friend as more. as everything as nothing.

 

 

 

what to do when the walls come closing in on you
how to feel when the one you love
tramples you

like a fool
we live to hurt again.
expecting to much from something
so small

we live for glimmers
when we have a bright shining light over us
to foray into the dark
leave the security
after a gleam

twinkles always look brighter
they are surrounded by
darkness
cling wishing you had the light back
when the dream extinguishes

this lit city will close its walls
and put out its lights on you.
leave you in a world of dark.

surely there will be more lights and even more spotlights
none will be as bright as mine.
when you have settled for something less
remember how much you loved me.

lights out

curtain call

end

 

 

we are with a flash.
we are what everyone wants to have.
we are the dream.
we are sweeping feet.
we are heelkicks and kneepops

wasted time for waiting no more
opened up and laid before
you
are
indescribable
the emotions spilling forth.
gripping like a tide.
rushing and pulling me into you.
drowning is a constant dream.
fill my lungs with you

we are with emotion
we are what we are
we are the happiness
we are holding hands
we are driving to home

landing on the doorstep
placed on a heart shaped platter
are
you
hungry with the desire
of knowing another person the way
i wish to know you.
it burns like the sun
and the passion is so red.
fill my veins with fire