im tired and my eyes burn

i had to drop the kiddies off in a hurry today at the pool..

they all kinda dust went everywhere out of the van. like holding your thumb over a waterhose.. it was really quite gross and didnt smell to good either.

i get paid tomorrow. yAY wootywoot woot.

amends made with friends, so not as many people dislike me now..

i went out with friend ben on tuesday after my treatment and had some bombs of the jaeger type.. it felt very very very good. black licorice.

i hope this next week is good. myself and my jude have been getting better. her parents say that they are going to stop by kc and let me see her for a day before they finish their trip to iowa.. im so happy..

and then she gets to spend two days with me on the way home> LKJDFLS:KJD YAY!!!! anywho.. im outtie like 5000

im having poetic like thoughts again.. something about missouri does that to me.. weird.

worked my ass of today. cause im a bad mammajamma

i got my visa sharecheck card that i oh so desperately needed

now i can pay my bills with out using cash and get porn off the internet..

im kidding............. i always pay without cash... wait wait.. i meant i dont look at internet porn.

anywho. i gots my cell turned back on again YAY!!!!

so yea call me nukkahs.. fo sho.

alrighty. im out and about doing the things that i like most.. like sleeping ..

i do that alot. especially with all the blood that i have running through my body.

which lemme tell ya isnt much.

i feel like shit justa bout everyday.

my head hurts. im gonna lie down somemore.

hour number 106 of sleep in the last 5 days commences

do you ever feel like your on the decline in your life?
not trying to sound emo and whatnot, life is a rollercoaster. but i will never be as strong as i started out as, i need an outside force to interact with my life something like a magnet to pull me back.

damn this.

la;skdfj lk

only a few hours left before i go to the hospital for chemotherapy whoo hooo!!!!!

so instead of having my hair falling out all over the place i decided to cut it all off beforehand. what fun heres some pics for you all to gawk at and laugh about.

1.Before haircut (the badass pic.) 2. the insane pennywise clown look..( i scared myself)

3. all done and complete with nair. (as smooth as a baby's ass!!!) 

so tomorrow i go in... wish me luck. ( i hope my eyebrows dont fallout.)

and if you're wondering, yes i did nair other parts. (*gasp*)

that is all

yo yo yo.. what it is mutha effa's

im  here im there im everywhere but where i want to be. to be back in the place i once adored.

oh well. ill getthere soon enough.

i love you judi.

my first post on my own in such a long time.... good gravy...

well... not much to say.. i dont hate life... more of a carpe diem with the current situation.. hopefully it doesnt end as quickly as it feels that it will...

i love you.

Judith Noelle Obermeier is my rock, my ocean, my everything and most importantly the love of my life....god i cant wait to be back together with her....i love you judi forever...stuff and stuff....

i have the greatest girlfriend ever....

yea stuff and stuff....

the best thing since boxed ramen noodles and processed cheese product...

to anyone who has attempted to call me... i have died

not really.. but i am poor which is almost worse than being dead.

i cant pay the cell bill cause its 200 something... *gasp*

i have no idea when im going to missouri....

i dont care really.. as long as i can stay here with the jude... 

goodness i heart her... thats about it...¢¾

spending time with the gf thing in the new apartizzle.

im almost positive that we have just recieved our second noise violation.

if so... then we only have one left.

i just got my first ticket ever for driving without my license in my possesion.

effing wallet.

so Im moving into an apartment. and im going to have almost no money. EVER.

eff.. hopefully i can get some lame department store job. that would alleviate the needs of clothing which seems to be my vise.....

i spend entirely way to much money on clothing.... i feel almost like a girl. but when you go to the mall or someother place of the nature and you see something that you think that you need .. you just cant help yourself sometimes.

its their and its cheap and stuff..... agrr.. what the eff.. im going to be broke a whole whopping 2 days after payday.

on a lighter note.. i havean entirely awsome and kick ass girlfriend named judy. she makes me really really really happy. unlike some of the other girls that ive talked to in my life, i can talk to her about everything. their have been girlfriends like that before but none exactly like this.. but thats the fun in the dating and having a girlfriend. finding the qualities that are better and always finding the ones that make them not as good as others in little aspects. im really enjoying this.

just about the only thing in life thats going in the correct direction. whew. what else..

oh yea. im getting annihilated on the ninth. no matter what. its going to happen.  and its going to be awesome. then i probably wont be done until the 12th. the ending of this is nigh