my head hurts so much.
i work a deskjob...
its easy..
but i hate it. cause its the same tedious menial bullshit work over and over and over again.
everyday i have the same things to do. and i hate it. grrrr...

thank you for listening.

yo yo yo...  im back.. ive decided to stay in charleston. and pursue things with interests of i dont know..

myself and friend bob are getting an apartment. its awesome. its big and pretty.

and sure to be mucho mucho funo

people are intelligent when they are drunk i swear.
especially when they are waiting in line to go potty.
instead of being like everyone else, they take the initiative.
and go right where they are standing all overthemselves.

when i look at you i start to tear.

it brings thoughts of making you happy

but knowing that you are the reason why im not happy

keeping me from doing the things i need to do.

im an alcoholic and theres nothing left to it.

i do sleep with girls that i find on the street

i am a whore. that is me.

i do not pay for sex

why do girls find me intrigueing

i cant say. im unattractive. very egoic at times.

but i guess im a helluva lotta fun to party with.

or i produce mad amounts of pheromones..

dont ask me. cause i dont know.

im a bad person.

with some bad dreams

myspace access has been denied at work and i really dont like that at all.. very uber gay. in the most extreme sense. oh well.

went to a concert. with my good friend bob and his wife and some friends of mine from other places.

after the first band all but me and bob left, they proceeded to go and get drunk.. which kinda upset me. oh well.

now bobs wife hates me cause i kept him out all night long.. la- dee- frigging- da
but its ok, im down with people hating me cause i went and had a good time.

gotta love life ... right?

met some amazing people this weekend and hope to go and hang out with them some more cause they rocked.

i swurr to someone that if i stop drinking alcohol in an unruly moderation ill go kill myself.

i love alcohol.. thats all there is to it.

and i have a good safe time.

cause i rock out with my ass out.

Id like to quote ozzy osbourne..

"MOMMA IM COMING HOME"

finally after what seems like a year of waiting ... oh wait it has been. im coming back to missouri..

edit!!:#*( B)(

jordan shall be picking me up and driving me back to missouri.. though i wont be home until the 17th or so. whatever.. i dont care cause im HAPPY

traveling is fun fun fun in the sun... wait.. its effing cold and cloudy all the time.. but its not bad... i got really drunk one night.

i dont remember 3 hours of one night.. but i was with responsible adults ??? so its ok right??? i think so. i remember drinking alot... and by alot i mean a veritable ass ton of alcohol.. and i now have a new favorite drink.. APPLE PIE

and i have secured things with a friend... we shall never do anything sexual.. no kissing .. and its a good feeling cause in the 3 weeks or so that ive known her weve become incredibly close. it would just be weird if we did anything though? you know what im saying .. its crazy.. ive felt entirely at home as well here.. its great...

long time no update. my bad..

i got my nipples peirced. "holy shit you didnt even flinch" i thought that was the neatest comment ever. to my ego that is. it was more uncomfortable than anything. They look sooo good. no bruising or scabbing.. nothing..

ill have pictures up later.

umm.... lets see.. on the lady front i went to banana joes again. for free once more. Unbeknownst to me. rachel is engaged-ish and/or single-ish. i had a talk with some of her frends and asked them what the 411 was. they said that if she liked a guy she told him that she was single.. and i was the only one that she had told was single.

good thing right??? i thought so at least.. so i continued to talk to her. and there were some nice text messages passed back and forth between us.  i thought things were going down the hunky dory path. of happyness. well i wasnt right. but at the same time i wasnt wrong.

while we were at BJ's one of her friends told me to go take her out to the dance flo' and get our grooves on.. while this was going on i later find out. that she was talking to one of her lady friends saying that she didnt want to do anything with me.. well if this was in anyway true she made it not so apparent for the two hours that we got down.

whatever.

at 1:30 something we were both exhausted and wanted to sit down. so i took her over to the side to a couch style thing.... were we talked..

i asked her about you know.. me and her.. cause at the time i had no clue what had transpired. well she said that she was happy being single for the moment. and that she just wanted to take things slow. and keep talking tome. and see where things go.. from there my rides were leaving and i needed to take one of them cause there was no chance of me going back to thier hotel room.. so i departed with a hug and a kiss.. and went home.

I talked to some of her friends the next day at the mall. the girl that rachel talked to as i was talking to one of her friends... during that time.. yea. stuff... grr. but not grr..

ill have pics up of the nips later.

enough with the bitching... happy post.

Last night went to the Olive Garden. I had absolutely no money. so i figured i would drink water and eat breadsticks.. and maybe snack on my friends salad. This would not be had though. So. instead of breadsticks, my lucky ass ate what was supposed to be scrimp alfredo. Alas, there was mussels in my alfredo. Which kinda ticked me off cause i really dont care for mussels. So, me being vocal voice my distaste for mussels to the waiter and got a free dessert.

YAY. and the meal was paid for by amanda.. a friend. nothing going on there. so yea.. but jesus.. not only did she pay for mine. she paid for everyones. cause the other person who was going to pay, well... there card was declined. thrice times.

anywho.. im not going home for the holidays due to financial woes. but i will be going somewhere. just not in a plane. im going to chicago with a friend.. there shall be much drinking of the water... much drinking.